I've got my 3-month check-up with my oncologist this morning.  To be honest, this is the first time I've been slightly nervous about one of my follow-ups -- I'm not even sure why.  I was talking with a friend recently about my thoughts lately about recurrance.  I've read enough to know that it's a very normal thing to worry about.  Last year I was so focused on getting through my treatments that I never really allowed myself to think of anything but getting better.  Then you stop seeing your docs every week or so and every little ache, pain, and swelling seems more threatening than usuual.  One of the side effects of my 5-year cancer drug is severe joint pain, and lately I've been really feeling it.  I'm not sure that I can stay on it for another 4+ years, so we might have to tweak that.  Which leads me to a question -- at what point do you start counting the time from one's being cancer-free?!  Is it from the time the cancer is removed (as in my case, with a lumpectomy,) or is it from the time your treatments (chemo/radiation) are finished?